Reykjavík Grapevine


Reykjavík Grapevine - 10.11.2017, Side 21

Reykjavík Grapevine - 10.11.2017, Side 21
and Reykjavík’s downtown leftist in- telligentsia, his social media recently seemed to indicate a big win for the centre-left in last month’s general elec- tions. The result, however, turned out quite different. “Technology is creating echo chambers,” he says. “We’re living in a bubble where we see only people who agree with us, because we’re fed information that supports our world- view. But then reality is completely dif- ferent.” Music withdrawals Högni had a musical upbringing and started playing the violin at five years old, while his older brother played the cello. His father played jazz piano, but his mother would listen to Bach on the stereo. “They later divorced and, who knows, maybe it was because they couldn’t reconcile jazz or classical,” he jokes. When he gave up the violin at age fifteen, he went into withdrawals from music, bought a guitar and started composing. Nu-metal and hip hop were among his first influences, but after return- ing from living in Belgium for three years, Högni found inspiration from his future bandmates. “I’d just start- ed school and really didn’t have any friends,” he says. “I joined the choir and got to know kids and formed bands. I befriended the Hjaltalín guys and we got really close. They were much bet- ter musicians than me—they could play anything. I could write songs and I worked on getting better on the piano and guitar, but I really admired their musicality.” Becoming a professional musician wasn’t something teenaged Högni even considered. He was into the visual arts and took some classes, while also be- ing active in sports with his local club, Valur. In choir, he even got made fun of a little for his voice, his now-trademark falsetto. “My voice was never consid- ered great, but at least it was clean,” he says, with a smile. The wild east After the release of Hjaltalín’s second album, the Broadway-esque ‘Termi- nal,’ Högni started performing with GusGus, eventually becoming a full member. When asked about his time with them, he launches into a Pinoc- chio simile. This is vintage Högni. He segues into something seemingly unrelated, which only starts to make sense when you’ve followed his entire thought process, as he works it out. By the end, his point is more than insight- ful enough to warrant the trek. “GusGus swallowed me whole,” he explains. “The lifestyle, the touring, the parties. It was like being on Plea- sure Island. Pinocchio is a great story. He’s supposed to be a good boy and go to school. But then he gets lured into joining the circus. They tell him ‘you’re so great, you can dance, come join the party.’ It’s fun and games the whole time. He chases the temptations, de- spite the protests of his conscience, and joins the entertainment business. But he keeps being tempted again and goes to Pleasure Island where he’s turned into a donkey. He ends up as a real boy. I was in this world of luxury for a while. I may have turned into a donkey.” Last year, he left the group. As a member, he’d achieved increasing rec- ognition outside of Iceland, especially in Eastern Europe, touring countries such as Poland, Ukraine and Russia, where he was treated as royalty. He’s set to return to Poland in December, following up his new album with a few European dates. “It was wild, the Wild East,” he says, laughing. “Touring with GusGus took a lot of energy from my album and my life. It didn’t affect me well personally and health-wise.” Fighting the ego “I’m bipolar,” Högni continues. “I got very sick and it has affected my life drastically. This album bears witness to it.” The disorder is characterised by pe- riods of depression and periods of ele- vated mood, known as manic episodes. Högni has described these stretches of ecstasy and energy, which at times played out in public, followed by sad- ness and shame. “I was pretty bad this summer,” he says. “I flew a little too high in the spring. The last few years, the swings have decreased in size. When I was the most ill a few years ago, I felt ter- rible, even if you couldn’t see it. There was just so much going on, lots of fun, and even excitement about going to the psych ward for the first time. Like I was going down a new path for myself. But I haven’t seen it as exciting since then.” Högni’s illness coincided with his rise to stardom in Icelandic music. He had collaborated with GusGus as a guest on their 2011 album ‘Arabian Horse,’ before joining full time. Hjal- talín’s most critically acclaimed album, ‘Enter 4,’ was about to be released. He was becoming highly sought after for collaborations and public appearances. But at the same time, he had problems being around people and didn’t know how to behave in public. “I felt anxious and I began to isolate myself, being eccentric and closing off from my people,” he says. “I’ve had to really make the effort to retain the connection to my family, friends and environment. Long-term, I’ve had to apply myself to being a good person. I’ve fought my ego in the past, tried to contain my pride. I think everyone has faced something like this, but being on stage all the time will exaggerate it. You can become guarded about what to do, how to be. As I grow older, I’m calmer about this and lean more towards nur- turing my relationship with creativity.” Destination success This internal pressure, which could be interpreted as the universal human feeling of anxiety, is exacerbated by Högni’s notoriety. “I know I sound like a teenager, but what do people think of me?” he wonders. “I may feel like I’m not doing anything new and every- body’s laughing at me. What if I’m not cool anymore? What does this certain group of people think of me? I do feel confident in being myself, being dif- ferent and saying unusual things. I’ve been controversial and I’ve accepted being eccentric.” He recalls how he went on a stream of consciousness “rant” onstage at the Icelandic Music Awards this past spring, at a time when his mood was elevated. For Högni, the big stage heightens every vulnerable moment. “In Iceland, we all have eyes on us,” he says. “But people are different and we should let some things slide. If we lived in a big city and some guy’s ranting, people would go: ‘He’s a bit crazy, this guy. He must be having a good time or something,’ and move on. In Iceland, it gets blown up. We keep thinking, ‘Did I do something wrong, did I look bad, am I comparing myself to someone from high school who is now doing some- thing with their life?’ We shouldn’t fear all the eyes.” While it may seem silly to talk about celebrity in a country of 330,000 peo- ple, there’s no denying Högni’s status. He doesn’t shy away from the spotlight, but fancies himself a living example of how fame and success don’t automati- cally deliver happiness. “It’s the biggest cliché and everybody kind of knows it,” he says. “I’m proud of the music I’ve created, but there’s no destination called success. I say goodbye to each album, and I move on. If I don’t keep creating, I feel bad.” A bit of anchoring After the release of ‘Two Trains’ and subsequent touring, Högni is excited to compose a still-secret film score, and work to expand his range further from composition and arrangement into the production side. Additionally, he’s already looking forward to a new solo album in the near future—hope- fully not another six years away. His main focus, though, is taking better care of himself. To that end, he’s rekindled an old passion of his: bas- ketball. He plays as a guard for Valur, his childhood club, which just started its season after being promoted to the premier division of Icelandic basket- ball. For Högni, this means going to practice every day and even putting in extra time in order to improve the skills necessary for top-flight hoops, such as 3-point shooting and finishing around the basket. “My life is untethered, in many ways,” Högni says. “I try to focus on making good music and seeking inspi- ration, chasing experiences, travelling and finding adventures. The routine that comes with being on a basketball team is very helpful. A bit of anchor- ing. Being a teammate, having this dai- ly commitment, and playing defence even if I don’t feel like it. Basketball is the best psychiatric medication I’ve had—and I’ve tried a few.” 21The Reykjavík Grapevine Issue 20 — 2017 “The lyrics had a wider perspec- tive than that. But the two trains remain as a metaphor for change and metamorphosis.” “It was a turbulent time in Europe and Iceland felt like a microcosm for these trends.”

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